The Payoff

Journal entry, August 2009.  

"I want to get out of retail and do what I'm supposed to be doing; which is not selling jackets. It's not selling anything. It's helping people & sharing life with people. I know I'm supposed to make people happy. I know that sounds completely retarded and whimsical, but I know that I am. I am meant for something besides sales goals and floorsets. That gig is someone's everything & that's really great, but it all means nothing to me.  I know that because I don't give a shit about it and I never ever did. You tend to care about what your destiny is. If you're meant to be an executive and make big monies for big companies, then you give a shit about that and it's all you think about it.  If that's your dream, I don't understand you but I hope you get to do that. I don't want to do that. I don't want to sell jackets, pants, skirts, socks...nothing. I want to take pictures. Every day. When I am not taking them, I want to be processing them. When I'm not doing that I want to be climbing or hiking or doing nothing or dancing. I do not care about numbers. I do not care."


It's good to be reminded every so often how far I've come since I went full-time with my business. It's amazing what we are capable of doing with hard work, and a lot of passion. I still have a long way to go, but I'm always working toward what I want to do with my life. The ability to be able to pursue that makes me so, so thankful.


Here's a day I took pictures just because. Thanks to my sis-in-law (to be) Michelle for being patient, cooperative & gorgeous.